Shhh. Did You Hear That? I Think God Just Spoke to Me

Growing up in the church, I remember always hearing people say, “The Lord said this…”
or “God spoke to me about that…” I never really bought into the belief that people actually heard God tell them much of anything, and that what people were hearing was their own desires of things (or lies) they told or was trying to convince themselves of. Especially if what the Lord “told them to do” wasn’t very holy…such as sleeping with another woman’s husband, and then justifying it by saying something crazy like, “The Lord told me that He blessed me with that man, and he’s going to be my husband.” Listen…first of all, the devil is a lie. And second of all, God would NEVER tell you that another woman’s husband belongs to you. That’s your mess, not His. Nevertheless, those were some of the things that I’ve witnessed taking place in the body of Christ. It’s so sad. It hurts my feeling knowing that people go around using “the voice of God” as an excuse to continue in their foolery. And I just know Jesus Himself is grieved by it. And because of this, I had a really hard time believing that God actually SPOKE to people.

Now, as the years went by and I grew in my spiritual walk with Christ, I myself, started to believe that I had learned to recognize the voice of God, but ONLY during prayer. I allowed myself to believe that it was ONLY through prayer that God speaks to His children, and that if you weren’t on your knees at your special prayer alter, or in your designated prayer closet, then there was no other way that you could possibly hear a word from Him. I know, I know…ridiculous, right? But that’s what I foolishly believed. I admit that I was guilty of trying to put the almighty and powerful GOD in a little box, and by doing so, I was subconsciously creating my own ideas and thoughts contrary of WHO God really is, AND His ability to reach whomever He wanted to get a word to, whenever He desired to do so. I’m so ashamed of that, but, it’s what I did. Just being honest with you about this, Church.

But, then something extraordinary (or dare I say supernatural?) happened to me one day…

As I was at the end stages of publishing my first Christian non-fiction book, I remember having a brief moment of silence, and not by my own choice. It was so odd, but all of a sudden I found myself still. Quiet. No deep thoughts running through my mind, no organizing or planning my next move in my head, no prayers being silently recited…just, still. Suddenly, as clear as if somebody was in the room talking to me face-to-face, I heard a still small voice say, “You did good with being obedient and writing the book, now let’s begin the process of starting your own business.” WAIT. WHAT? DID YOU HEAR THAT?! To say I was a little freaked out, was an understatement.

It was a known fact that mental illness ran through my family bloodline, so my first reaction was to panic, and seek help. But it was at that moment when a warm, calming sensation fell over me, and I immediately felt a sense of peace. I felt the presence of God. He wanted me to know, that it was Him.  So, I continued to listen. If I had to describe what and how God presented Himself to me that day, I would compare it to hearing your “conscience” or that little voice in your head that tells you what’s ‘right’ and what’s ‘wrong’…that’s what it sounded like…but more clear. No guessing. No confusion. It was simply amazing. It was God.

Now, me being in the flesh, and even though God had confirmed and identified His presence when speaking to me, I still had some questions about what He just said…

“Umm, Father, that sounds great and all, but first of all, exactly what kind of business am I supposed to start, and where is the money coming from to start it?”

Don’t judge me, but I was so serious about getting an answer from Him about that. And that’s not even the fun part…I got my answer alright. And my answer was, that He never answered my question! He said, “Just go. The directions and provisions will be provided along the way.” He went on to tell me the type of business I would start, but that was it. It was then that I realized that God expecting for me to trust Him, be obedient, and “Just go.”

Anybody that knows me, knows that I am not now, nor have I ever been, a risk taker. I’ve always played by the rules. I’ve always stayed where the probability of failure was slim to none. I’ve always placed myself in situations that I thought I could control. I didn’t know anything about starting a business, nor did I have the resources, financial or otherwise, to even know where to begin. And now, here I stood serving a God that intentionally was pushing and testing the limits of my obedience and faith. No upfront details and information pertaining to my new business endeavor, OR the necessary tools, knowledge and skills that I needed to do it with. “Just go.”

I needed more confirmation. So I started having dreams. God began stirring me in my sleep. Visions, and thoughts of business ideas came to my mind as I slept, or went about doing daily activities. Even simple things like scrolling on my Facebook or Instagram, I started getting little messages on different ads that would pop up about different companies that help with registering trademarks, logos and other services that specialize in the preparation of legal business documents. And without my even trying, information, resources, business plans, structures, and just things in general, literally began to fall into place and into my hands to work with. God was providing my tools. But even still, I needed more reassurance that I was actually hearing the voice of God, and that it was His doing that these things were happening to me, and it wasn’t my own thoughts. So I turned to the bible for answers, and was given the following Scriptures from the New King James Version:

JOB 33:14-16

“For God may speak in one way, or in another, yet man does not perceive it. In a dream, in a vision of the night, when deep sleep falls upon men, while slumbering on their beds, then He opens the ears of men, and seals their instruction.”

I KINGS 19:12-13

“And after the earthquake a fire, but the Lord was not in the fire; and after the fire a still small voice. So it was, when Elijah heard it, that he wrapped his face in his mantle and went out and stood in the entrance of the cave. Suddenly a voice came to him, and said, “What are you doing here, Elijah?”

God speaks to us. Whether through visions and dreams, or as bold and outright in the form of a still small voice, like He did with Elijah the prophet, in the book of I Kings. God speaks. We just need to be still long enough to just listen. And to do so with the intentions of not only getting familiar with the voice of God, but also heeding to it. Trusting His voice. Knowing in your heart that He is present and is trying to tell you something. And as in the book of 1 Samuel 3:10, we must always position ourselves to be readily available to hear when God calls for us to provide instruction, whether in our businesses, marriages, relationships or life choices.

This is my testimony. Starting my new business was NOT my idea, but it was one that God had been wanting to bless me with, and one that I am now extremely excited and passionate about. I had initially just been too afraid to hear what the Lord had been trying to tell me about it. One other thing I learned about God, is that sometimes when you can’t hear Him or just blatantly ignore Him, He will simply stop talking to you. And don’t get me wrong, He won’t stop talking to you because He’s upset with you. No, not at all. He will simply just go a different route to get your attention. Instead, He might just began pushing you in the direction in which He ordered for you to go. Jobs, people and things may start being removed out of your life. You know, distractions, is what I like to call them. And believe me, sometimes it’s quite uncomfortable when the hand of God begins to move in your life. And once He starts rearranging, moving and REmoving things, it’s really unfair, and way out of line, for us to start demanding answers from Him after we’ve been ignoring His warnings and spiritual preparation for those seasons He had already ordered, and was getting ready to take us through. But nevertheless, we as Christians, must trust Him because it’s all for our good.

So the next time you find yourself alone or in a brief moment of silence, recognize that a stage has been set for you to receive a word from God. Speak, Lord! For Your servant is listening!

 

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Childhood Trauma and Spiritual Resilience

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Just Be...new religious and motivational bookThere are a plethora of books chronicling the lives of victims who have experienced severe childhood trauma; nevertheless, the author of the book, “Just Be”, was endowed with the strength of the Lord to share her spiritual testimony about her experiences of severe childhood trauma and familial discord.

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“…Holy” – Excerpt from “Just Be…”

“I was so hurt after my divorce, that I even began telling myself that marriage was a joke. It wasn’t for me, and never will be.

I believed that all men were cheaters who didn’t honor monogamy, so why should I? If they could sleep with multiple women and not feel anything for them, why isn’t it ok for me to treat them the same way?

I had turned so bitter, and blatantly rejected the idea that God went around blessing women with their “Boaz.” As far as I was concerned, the story of Boaz and Ruth’s love in the bible, was just that…a story. It didn’t exist in my world.

My heart was so sick. And even though I knew deep down that my current mindset was not consistent with what the Word of God taught, I still refused to believe that I deserved anything better than what I allowed myself to have.”

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Excerpt from “Just Be…”

“Not too long ago, I was in prayer and entered into a very interesting conversation with God. I remember I had come whining and complaining to Him about my frustrations and short-comings, and why I was having a hard time trying to live right. Trying to walk right. Failing time after time to just be a “good” person. I knew that there were things and areas in my life that I was struggling to work through, but felt as though He was punishing me for my mistakes.

I was so angry with God because I believed that He wasn’t seeing how hard I was trying to do what He wanted me to do, and was delaying the blessings, that I thought I deserved, because of it.

“What am I doing wrong, Lord? What do You want me to do? I’m trying to trust You. I’m trying to walk in the steps that You ordered for me. What am I missing?”

And as I sat there on my knees at my prayer alter in my room, tears steadily spilling down my face, I suddenly heard God’s still small voice. “Just Be,” He said.

I was a little startled at first, as I felt that His words were just a thought in my mind that came out of nowhere. Confused, I repeated the words to myself, “Just be? What on earth does that mean? And what am I supposed to ‘Just be’?” Again, He responded, “Just be who I called you to be, daughter.”

-Excerpt from “Just Be…” Purchase your copy today at http://www.justbebooksandbeads.com

“Blood is Thicker…” So They Say

I’ll never forget the feeling I had the day I clicked the “Publish Site” button to launch my new online book and handmade jewelry store. I was an official entrepreneur. A business owner. A published Author. It was amazing! I just KNEW that all the family and friends that I had on my Facebook page (which comes to a whopping 198 people) would be so excited and happy for me, and every one of them, ESPECIALLY my family, would be my biggest supporters and rush to my website to buy my book and purchase a toggle bracelet and maybe some matching earrings to go with it.

So, when I finally made my announcement about my new business and book, posted ads, asked for help to spread the word about it, and sent invites to like my business page, I was a little surprised that only 27 people from my Facebook friends list actually “liked” my posts and ads about the grand opening of my new business. And out of that 27, only 2 of my relatives (1 out of my 3 sisters, and one of my aunts) were among them. Needless to say, I got into my feeling about that a little bit.

How is it, that before I got saved and really got serious about walking with Christ, and was just posting random things about relationship issues, drama I was having about my kitchen remodel among other things, and maybe some funny cat memes here and there, that I would receive between 40 to 60 (don’t laugh, cause that’s a lot for me, considering the fact that I only have 198 friends) “likes” on those posts; but the minute my focus, ambition and hunger for success in my spiritual and physical life began to change and shift closer towards God’s will and His way, folks (along with their Facebook “likes”) began disappearing from my life? And even worse…they began to whisper and doubt me. Doubt my success. Speak curses instead of blessing about my business and in my life. Spread lies about me. Become…well, “Haters.”

Needless to say, I started feeling some kind of way about certain people, mainly my family members, my “blood,” and naturally began to resent them for their behavior towards me and my good news. I mean, I at least expected that kind of behavior from the majority of so called “friends” that I had on my Facebook friend’s list, but not my family. But, because I’m a Christian still learning how to walk in the ways of the Lord, it only made sense to turn to the word of God for answers on the following:

  1. How to properly identify Haters in my inner circle, and/or on my Facebook friend’s list and other social media outlets
  2. How to deal with “Haters” in a biblical way, so that I could continue to be blessed and unbothered by their “Hater ways.”

First, let’s take it to Scripture to see what the word says about “who” a Hater actually is and how they can be identified. I’ll be reading from the New King James Version.

PROVERBS 26: 24-26

“He who hates, disguises it with his lips, and lays up deceit within himself; when he speaks kindly, do not believe him, for there are seven abominations in his heart; though his hatred is covered by deceit, his wickedness will be revealed before the assembly.”

The word gave us a clear example of who a Hater is, AND how a Hater can be properly identified…THEY WILL EXPOSE THEMSELVES! And there is no better way for a Hater to expose themselves then by their own jealousy, resentment, and envy that they display when they see you being blessed and succeeding in life. Now of course, before you began living in God’s overflow, they were probably really nice to you. They said nice things, and maybe they were the very ones that even encouraged you when you first told them about your plans for success with words like, “That’s great! I’m so happy to hear that you’re going for (whatever it is that you were trying to succeed or praying to be blessed and believing in God to provide for you).” Or maybe something like, “I think that’s a really good idea. You can do it!” Or my favorite, “I can’t wait until you start your business. I’m going to support you 100%”

They never really meant what they said to you. Or at least, THEY believed they meant what they said to you, until you actually started winning and becoming and/or receiving that in which you prayed for. Then, all bets were off. They have been exposed.

But, it’s all good. It’s not like the good Lord didn’t provide His children with the answers on how He expects us to respond to this type of behavior, and these types of silly individuals. As a matter of fact, God made sure we were heavily armed and prepared with dealing with that nonsense throughout the entire bible. But for the sake of keeping this blog as a blog and not a book, I’ll just provide two Scriptures of artillery from the word of God, to help get you started. Here is how we, as Christians, are to respond to our Haters.

MATTHEW 5: 44

“But I say to you, love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who spitefully use you and persecute you.”

EPHESIANS 4: 29

“Let no corrupt word proceed out of your mouth, but what is good for necessary edification, that it may impart grace to the hearers.”

Pretty self-explanatory…love they Haters! It’s not our place, as believers, to talk bad about people who talk bad about us. And it’s not okay to mistreat people who are having a hard time coping with seeing you get blessed. We’re set apart for a reason. I had to realize that being upset or in my feeling about family and friends that I thought would be my biggest supporters in my new business endeavors, was not worth my energy. It’s just all a part of being blessed and highly favored by my Father in heaven. It’s all a part of the Christian experience.

We can’t stop or put our spiritual growth and successes in our lives on hold, or be distracted and thrown off course just because people that we thought loved us, doubted us. And we definitely can’t be mad at any family or friends that have been exposed as a Hater. They’re just doing what they know how to do. Just thank God that He revealed them to you early on, rather than later. Nevertheless, always remember that at the end of the day, Christians gonna pray, and Haters gonna hate!

“Just Be…” books are now available!

I am pleased to announce that my new book, “Just Be…” is now published and available for purchase directly from my new online store at www.justbebooksandbeads.com
Thank you for your support, and please spread the word!

Are you currently struggling with your spiritual relationship with God? Have you done everything that you thought you needed to do to become the woman God called you to be, but for some reason, you still aren’t quite where you thought you should be by now in your overrall growth and spiritual walk with the Lord?
“Just Be…” shares the Author’s powerful, intimate and unfiltered details pertaining to her own struggles and life’s testimony, that led to her discovery of the brokennes in her past that has hindered her from just being the woman God called her to be. The book also takes readers on a journey to help them discover the brokenness in their own lives, both past and present, that may be the cause as to why they too may have been hindered from living the lives that God desires for them to live, and taking hold of the characteristics of the person they were created and called to be. Through the use of “self-checks” and prayer devotionals, “Just Be…” offers readers the ability to search their souls for the inner peace and healing that their hearts have so eagerly been hungering for, so that they may become whole and prosper in their spiritual walk and closeness with God.

Author, Kemmiel Snowden; Published, 2017

 

Just Because I’m a Christian, Doesn’t Mean I’m Not Allowed to Tell You “NO!”

So, I think a lot of people, both believers and non-believers, have this set thought process that Christians are ALWAYS supposed to be so giving, feed the homeless, open up their homes to people and basically just be willing and ready to give the shirts off their backs and the draws from their behinds to anyone in need at any given time. No questions asked, and no complaints. That we’re just “supposed to” say “yes” to all those in need. Especially our own family members. It’s just what Christian folks are SUPPOSED to do, right? Well, in my most recent life event and spiritual conversation with the Lord, I know this to be both true and false. Understand that feeling obligated as a Christian to say “yes” to any and everybody that comes to you with their hands out, and giving your resources so much so to the point where you begin to allow yourself to be taken advantage of, financially burdened down and used up, is NOT wise nor what God intended for us to do. Disagree? That’s cool, let’s take it to Scripture…

2 CORINTHIANS 8:9-15

“For you know the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ, that though He was rich, yet for your sakes He became poor, that you through His poverty might become rich.

And in this I give advice: It is to your advantage not only to be doing what you began and were desiring to do a year ago; but now you also must complete the doing of it; that as there was a readiness to desire it, so there also may be a completion out of what you have. For if there is first a willing mind, it is accepted according to what one has, and not according to what he does not have.

For I do not mean that others should be eased and you burdened; but by an equality, that now at this time your abundance may supply their lack, that their abundance also may supply your lack-that there may be equality. As it is written, “He who gathered much had nothing left over, and he who gathered little had no lack.” -NJKV

So basically what Paul was saying in this text was that it is in fact to our advantage to be generous in our giving, especially if the Lord has blessed is with either spiritual, material or eternal rewards in abundance. And it is a good thing that we possess a heart and cheerful spirit when helping others in need according to our resources. The idea is that in the body of Christ, some believers who have been blessed with more than they need SHOULD help those who have far less. However, we as believers do not need to go into debt, or impoverish ourselves to do so. Nor, do we have to feel guilty just because other people attempt to shame you by trying to hit you with stuff like, “I thought you were a Christian!” just because you didn’t help them out. It’s OK to say “No.”

I recently had one of my little sisters move back in with me. She had separated from her husband in Virginia, and wanted to move back to California to start her life over. Now, I KNOW my little sister. I raised her, along with my other baby sister, since they were 9 and 10 years old. I even got legal custody of them from our mother and their dad, through the court (You’ll have to pick up a copy of my book, “Just Be…” to get the full juicy and crazy details about how that came about). Anyway, she has always lacked ambition and the desire to actually DO something with her life. In other words….she’s extremely lazy, and thinks that she deserves a life of being pampered, taken care of and showered with gifts.

Well, I made it very clear to her that if she moved back in with me, she would HAVE TO have a game plan in terms of what she was going to do. She agreed and stated that she had plans to join the military, and when she moves back to California, she’s going to get set up with a recruiter, and she’ll only need to live with me for no more than 2 months…It has been 5 months, and she’s still being a bum sleeping on my couch, eating up my kids’ snacks, and not paying a single bill!

Now, I already shared some Scripture with you all about what the bible says about helping those in need. And when stuff like this happens to you, it’s important to use your God-given gift of discernment, and understand the difference between “helping somebody” and being “used by somebody.” She’s a user. She “gots” to go!

I love my baby sister dearly, but I had to pray about the right words to use with her when it came time for me to give her a 30-day notice. Being harsh or mean to her about what she was doing was not how God would have wanted me to react to her, even after her true motives were discovered. So, I started out by telling her how much I loved her. How I had hoped for the best for her, and also how I believed that she could do better than how she was currently living her life. Sometimes, that’s all we can do as Christians. Offer our words of encouragement to others, in hopes that they’ll realize the level of responsibility that they must obtain to take hold of the blessings that God wants to give to them, but for reasons unbeknownst to us, God has withheld from them. It’s not our job to get in God’s way or interfere with His set-up on the cards He deals to different people. Sometimes all you can do is just pray for them.

I have a promise on my life. The Lord has been working on me for years to get me to where I am right now. I recognize that I am at a point in my life to where I’m preparing to cross over into my Promised Land. But just as in the book of Joshua where the Lord told the children of Israel that in order to inhabit their Promised Land, they would have to take out the Canaanites, Hittites, and all the other “ites.” I believe that same message spoke to me…my little sister is a “Canaanite” that MUST vacate my Promised Land in order for me to inhabit it and be prosperous. I was breaking my neck to take care of her, my nephew (her son), and my own two kids with one paycheck, and no other source of help, just because that was the “Christian thing to do.” But, the Lord made it clear to me that just because I’m a Christian, doesn’t mean that I’m not allowed to say, “No!”

 

 

 

 

Well, Go On and Testify!

Writing and publishing my very first Christian non-fiction book, “Just Be…” was not only a huge personal accomplishment, but it also became my spiritual breakthrough in my journey to wholeness in Christ. You see, before the Lord transformed me into this mature Christian woman that I am today, I was suffering in a prison of my own brokenness. Still in denial about where I went wrong in my life. Still blaming other people, hardships and circumstances as to why I wasn’t able to function or live up to the characteristics of the woman God called me to be. I refused to see the role I played in my struggle. I refused to acknowledge that the attitude I carried, the way I interacted with other people, financial hardships, the failed relationships (and marriage) I had, was all due to the ugly and dark secrets in my past that I was so desperately trying to bury and hide…from other people, myself, and yes, I was even foolish enough to try to hide it from God Himself.

And so, here I stand. Free. Happy. Saved. Whole. But discovering and overcoming the brokenness in my past was just the beginning. Now, I needed to learn how to live and walk this Christian-life thing out. And boy, is it tough! Let’s get real for a moment so that there are no misconceptions about who I, Kemmiel Snowden, really am. Yes, I am a fully devoted Christian woman, who loves the Lord, is saved and found her wholeness in Jesus Christ. I go to church on a regular basis, pray every day and read my bible at least 4 to 5 days out of the week. BUT, I am STILL a human being. I have flesh, which means that I am prone to do sinful things. For example, I was driving down the road one day dancing and singing along to Byron Cage’s gospel song, “I Will Bless The Lord” minding my own business, and just as happy and filled with the Holy Spirit as can be, when this man cut me off with his SUV, and I sure did proceed in calling him all kinds of unholy things. All in that split moment…I’m not perfect. Of course, I quickly repented after I realized the ugliness that I displayed. But the fact is, I still have a lot of work to do on me.

That was the moment I realized, that being a Christian and living a life of holiness was going to take some serious work. Not only is it going to take reading the bible, going to church and prayer. But it was also going to take my true heart’s desire and love for God to want to do right by Him. To present myself a living sacrifice unto Him. My heart desires to be close to Him. My heart longs to be that in which He has called me to be. And because of that desire, I take up my cross DAILY.

God knows that we aren’t perfect, and quite honestly, He doesn’t expect us to be. He does, however, expect us to be obedient and faithful to His word. And because of His unconditional love for us and His desire to guide us into the blessed life in which He has already prepared and waiting for each of us, I thought it would be especially important to help my fellow sisters-in-Christ by sharing my testimonies of my own “Come-Ups” and “Shortcomings” in my daily walk as a Christian woman.

There will always be days while in our spiritual walk, where we will experience wins and take a loss from time to time. But either way, there is no room for any of us women to judge one another as we struggle to keep moving forward while trying to live a life holy and acceptable unto the Lord. We are not in this thing alone, nor do we have to be. So, with that said, let’s get to work showing the world what it truly means to be a Christian woman, and to Just Be a Testimony!

1 PETER 4: 8-10

“And above all things have fervent love for one another, for “love will cover a multitude of sins.” Be hospitable to one another without grumbling. As each one has received a gift, minister it to one another, as good stewards of the manifold grace of God.”